moments

July 17, 2014

Have you listened to Katy Perry's "This Moment?"  . . . If you haven't, listen here.  The words are a wonderful reminder and I want to thank my beautiful step-sister, Kristin, for bringing it to my attention.



Here are her beautiful words . . .

Can you tell me
Who called the race?
Can anyone stay in one place?
And when you get to the finish line
Will you wish for more time or say
One day . . . One day you will
But maybe one day you will find
That you just can't push rewind
All we have is this moment
Tomorrow's unspoken
Yesterday is history
So why don't you be here with me?
All we have is this moment
To put our love into motion
Yesterday is history
So why don't you be here with me?
Be here with me now
Do you ever think that
We're just chasing our tails?
Like life is one big fast treadmill
And we pop what is prescribed
If it gets us first prize but you know
Who I . . . Who I think will win
Are the ones that love loving
Are the ones that take the time
'Cause refuge check is right now, right in front on you
Don't let the clock, the clock tell you what to do
If you check right now, I'm in front of you
Baby don't blink and miss
This moment

This constant feeling of having to remember to "live in the moment" and be present at all times because this is the time that matters and these minutes you will never get back is like a broken record playing over and over in my head everyday.  Especially now that we have two beautiful vivacious little girls.  I feel bombarded by people, editorials, blogs, songs, advice to savor every moment, enjoy each second with your kid because in the blink of an eye they are grown and gone . . . and I have to be honest all this A D V I C E panics & paralyzes me.   

I try, I try so very hard to be present in the situation that is going on in front of me but sometimes it is so hard.  When I am driving into work alone or on my morning run I remind myself to enjoy my time a work with my colleagues, to enjoy the time that I get to use my mind and be creative, to enjoy myself at home with my littles and Mr. Hotpants, to enjoy those special moments with my sister, brother, mum and dad and all my little nieces and nephews BUT then the actual real moments come and I am in those moments and I can't remember to be present and to enjoy them.  Life gets in the way of me relishing in these moments.  I feel like life is full of breaking up arguments over toys, time-outs, negotiations and compromises, routines and schedules and in all this commotion I am not enjoying the people in the commotion with me or around me, that I am "losing" all those precious moments.  

But recently I have been wondering if it is the messiness and craziness of life that make up those moments.  What if for this period in our lives (toddler years!!!) our "moments" will be blurry, fuzzy, laughable after the fact, and that is just how this part of our story will be remembered . . . exactly as it was lived.  It is hard for me to give up control, to let things be messy because it is not in my nature but for now, for this summer,  I'm going to try and take life a little less seriously and let it be a little more messy and see how the moments play out.

Deep breath . . .

in with the fresh, clean, white

out with the tense, dark, yuckiness
 










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  2. I love this Emma! Thanks for sharing your thoughts!!! For me, I think part of it is the expectation that the moment should be joyful, wonderful, fun. We all want to be present for those moments. But not all moments are created equal and so many are just tough, painful or exhausting. We often want to check out of those moments, so we numb or distract ourselves to get through them. But I think that's the point of being in the moment and "present" in our life... it is facing each moment the way it is and giving it our attention. It's not easy, it goes against our current mulit-task society and it takes constant practice!!! And it's so hard when you have young ones and it is messy! But I think that there are great gifts in that practice... I love this Zenhabits site which talks more about it... http://zenhabits.net/a-simple-guide-to-being-present-for-the-overworked-and-overwhelmed/ xoxo to you

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  3. Tammra - thank you so much for taking your time to comment . . . and thank you for the Zen Habits page ... I LOVED IT!!! your comment made me feel normal and valid . . . xoxo E

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